The other morning I sat down to write a blog post about not taking blogging too seriously. I poured my heart into the post, only to find out that I somehow deleted it at the end of the session. Talk about irony… It was so ironic, that I couldn’t even get mad. I just laughed. I mean, let’s be real, deep down I was still extremely frustrated, but it was like God, himself, was telling me, “Oh, yeah. Let’s see how seriously you take your blog after this.” Like I said, I had to just laugh.
Here’s my attempt to recreate that post. We’ll see how I do.
Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about blogging. With all cheaters that buy comments/likes (if you want to read a great article about bloggers that buy likes and followers, read my girl Ashley’s post here), and even with all the link-ups and comment/like pods, it’s all started to feel so inauthentic. (If you aren’t sure what a comment/like pod is, it’s basically a support group where you and other bloggers will comment/like each other’s content, whenever you post.)
Now, this is not to poo-poo on those support groups, because I actually belong to quite a few. In fact, I have met so many incredible women and discovered some amazing accounts, through these types of groups. The purpose of these types of groups is to support and help grow each other’s blogs, but the problem with these groups is that it is not genuine growth. It’s support, yes, but not growth.
My point is simply this: when did I get so caught up in trying to grow my blog, that I stopped genuinely enjoying it? I used to follow accounts and read blogs that I genuinely loved and that inspired me. Now I’m quick to comment on random accounts and blogs, in hopes of getting a reciporated effort on mine. Law of reciprocity…it’s a real thing, people.
That has been my struggle this year. When I started this blog, it was because I felt inspired. I would read blogs daily, and felt like I had something worth sharing. At some point, I lost that. It became a business. I started treating it just like a business, and esteeming it equally to my day job. The problem with that, is that it doesn’t pay the bills. ‘Nuff said.
A few months ago, after burning the candle at both ends for over a year, I had a ‘come to Jesus’ talk with myself. Conclusion: it’s not the main thing, so don’t treat it like the main thing, because…it’s not! It’s a passion, and when I stop treating it like a passion, it becomes a burden.
I discussed this with a friend a few weeks ago who gave me some great advice: Don’t confuse your passions with your pursuits. This beautifully articulated the way I had been feeling. So, what are my pursuits? My career, my family, my community, my faith and my health. When any of those feel out of balance I feel out of balance.
So what do I plan to do? Simple answer: I don’t know. I don’t feel like letting go of the blog is the right answer, because, like I said, it’s a passion. It’s something that excites me and gives me an opportunity to express my creativity. Plus, I adore all of you and am so grateful for your support!! All I know is that I’m not allowing it to fill a place that I can’t give it, anymore. I plan to refill that place with getting back in shape, spending more time in the word, talking more walks with my husband and spending more time with my community. Without those things, I am nothing. That doesn’t necessarily mean that I will blog any less, or engage less even. I just need to regain a healthy perspective on my life, and that starts with a cold hard look within.
I guess I’m just really longing to get back to the heart of the blog. To visit blogs I genuinely love. To know that people are visiting mine because they genuinely want to. To post when I want to post and not because I have to hit some sort of self-inflicted quota. To know that at the end of the day, this blog doesn’t run me, I run it.
Thanks for allowing me to share these thoughts with you today. I would love to hear your thoughts on blogging in the comments below. Have a great Friday!